Life in Nebraska ....

I just read the book today called The Giver  by Lois Lowry.  Did you ever read it?  It was about a community created that wanted calm and predictability.   In the process they eliminated color, pleasure, pain and choice.  And more of course.  And if you didn't fit the standard you were released to Elsewhere.  (Killed).   It sounds like a silly choice of reading, I know.  But it makes one think.   I've been kind of not really liking the color in my life lately.  But without the color what do we have?  Can one have joy without sorrow?  Pleasure without first knowing pain?  Choices?  We don't choose bad things.  But would we know good without the bad?  Love.  What would that even be if we didn't have choice and pain and feeling.  The thing of it is, is that God created us as beings to bring Him glory. By choice.  And He draws us with Love.   God is a God with intri...

Just peeking out of my shell.  Hi.  I have some thoughts on fear.  And panic attacks. And health.   I won't pretend I know it all.  I don't.  I think we all know fears and we all have out own vice or coping skill.  Here are mine.  If all you have is a fear then that's all you have.  If there's no medical cause, or firm proof that this thing is real then all it is, is fear.   If your fears take you to the point of panic attacks,  bad health, staying in, and  darkness they're not from God.   Sometimes the thing you fear is real.  Those are the times you bring them to your ultimate Helper and choose.  You choose to do the moment and wait. Or you choose to keep putting it into His hands by tangible means, like praying, or going to the Psalms and praying them, or singing hymns while you cry, or  going out and finding someone to help and love on.  About the fears that aren't from God.  ...

Last weekend Matt and I celebrated our 40th birthdays.  Combined, we have 80 years of experience.  And wisdom.   Haha!    Watch out world!   Jk. To celebrate our birthdays we had overnight sitters and  a romantic bed and breakfast reserved.  And out to eat at the Brazilian Grill.   Every one of those places were very over rated and over priced.  And I woke up Saturday morning with a nasty head virus.   So we came home and I concluded that 40 can only get better from here.  A few facts:.   An older person has time to give things time.   I was talking to an older wiser person the other day and they said give it time.  And I realized they knew from experience that time is important.  But I wanted to look at them cross eyed and explain how we don't have time.  But Im pretty sure they're right.  They  have time to give life time.  I'm going to be that way w...