Life in Nebraska ....

I read a liturgy this morning.   A phrase or two: O Christ who stood with Peter in his boat  And said, "Launch out into the deep."  Now come on board with me  That I too may launch out into the deep And know I always float upon the surface of your mystery.  Now as I sail, sail with me,  With me in calm and storm, And even as Your waters lift my boat,  Lift and sustain me. And another one.... Help me to remember that I live in both the Now and the Not Yet.  And a Bible verse: Show me Thy path.   So you see, I have been praying wrongly.  It isn't about God showing me My path.   It's God showing me HIS path.   It's not about my clarity. It's about God's clarity.  I am living in the now.   And now looks just pretty dark. But the Not Yet is around the corner  And looking at Jesus while I'm sailing this boat of life, Shows me HIS path.   It's not my path or my responsibility to blaze ...

https://open.spotify.com/track/0hFbM5TjRxWwPh8xIAYW38?si=zjODqNVMQduT0YCHdrSPXQ If that link works you should go listen to this song.   It soothes the soul.  Exactly what I need.  I've been listening to it for over a year.   When the noise gets to loud and the pain gets too strong.    Whem Matt built the greenhouse he was thinking about practical things....like growing food.  Somehow it has turned into a place to rest and relax the shoulders and turtle.   I believe everyone should have a place to rest.   How I'm so privileged to have this space is truly a unforeseen gift.  How God made things so beautiful - right down at the core of a plant, to the whole plant-  mystifies.      I wonder, does God design us like plants?  Deep inside are we that intricate and beautiful? And does the whole person show up as beautiful as that intricate inner being?   ...

I didn't actually want a diagnosis.  Jeanie has been a whole sunshine her whole life.  At age 10 she began to have seizures.  At age 3 she wasn't talking clearly. At age 6 she could barely write or color. At age 12 she still can't read or do numbers.   She's very literal.  Making a joke doesn't come out right.  Getting a pun is normal for her.  Walking a smooth straight line and jogging an even jog aren't in her repertory.   But making it fun and repressing the negative are things she's picked up and can do better than you.   If you think you do life scared, be her for a day.  She thinks it's normal to spill something and break something and not be able to thread a small bead. She thinks it's normal for the letters to blink out on the page and not be able to remember the sounds of the letter combination.   She knows she can't tie her shoe or work a buckle.  But she isn't embarrassed to ask for he...